Jun 1, 2013

2013 what in mind and next in my life

It all started a year and half  ago and every day I see it going on and on, in life people say there are time of up and down, yes I have seen up and down but some are much much more than we can handle in our life.
Everybody was born with purpose in this world and everybody has the goals to fulfill in this world but what can I say, sometime we build our own cottage or castle which burial ourselves in and become difficult to get our self out…. I enjoyed been who I am and working for what I believe in as my goals in this life and this made me forget things can fall apart sometime in life and it not easy to continues with my destiny if things does not work as planned, I have been thinking fighting with my mind, planning and my goals for long time, I sometime think I took the wrong turn in my life but I keep my hope and try as hard has it’s to be strong.
My dream still grows strong Anyway this my main reason for writing this words today is,  I have been thinking for while for sometime now I really wanted to do it but I did not manage get enough fund as I wanted to start or do it, one of my greatest dream desire and hope it is my village project – Hope children and Empowerment center (HCCR) this my current and future and I have been thinking a lot of how to go on with this because for while I have left many activities there on stand still due to my financially challenges.
So my question and my worry now is how will I solve all this challenges and remove the heavily burden on my back.
One idea I had, is to move from Nairobi to the village start my new life there where I will not need to pay for the office or house rent and other things may be easy even if it for now there so much needed to be achieved. That why I SAY before I MOVE out from Nairobi there are few things I need to achieve and manage, and that one place am working on to see how I can fundraise enough funds to make this big move which is change to my life and my future goals Now or never!.
1) One, if you remember well sometime last year I worked in training few youth on soap and candles making. I want to get back to start this as one of our income generating project but I need to fundraise for the project first (which cost approximately for the capital of Kshs 30,000, on lower side) and this one project am looking forward to invest in, as the way of bringing income to support other small HCCR daily programs apart from Candles and soap making.
2) Two, I want to start chicken project (which cost approximately for the capital/ starting money for 100 chicks 20,000 plus housing building 15,000) in Kenya today chicken are marketable and we have already open market to sell chicken meat or eggs only the challenges, we get is capital to start the project and commitment because for the first time you need to learn a lot in layering chicken to be matured for meat or eggs to start earning profit from them.
3) Three, After this project pick or if we can be able to raise more fund in time we would also like to become the master of ceremony arrangement in hiring chairs, plates, cups tents and public address to local public communities ceremony in our area which will be another way of bring income and giving few youth in our society Job opportunity.
Budget of getting this equipment in our center
1. Approximate simple plastic chairs each cost Kshs 500 target of start with 100 chairs – Kshs 50,000.
2. Approximate plate/cups each Kshs 25 target starting point with 1000 – Kshs 25,000.
3. Tents for 100 people it rage from 85,000 to 120, 000 which is branded with organization names.
4. Public address complete system with DJ mixer approximate of 200,000
This are part of my wishes list for my next move in settling in the village with Hope children and Empowerment center (HCCR) and apart from that am always believe so much with learning from each other/ exchange programs as way of inquiring knowledge from other people from experience sharing and working together for common goals.
4)Four, I Started building HCCR in 2007 and up to today’s there is so much needed to be completed especially our guest house which I intend to use as our office, volunteer and Guest accommodation so as to get new ideas from other people who will be interested to come work with us for duration of time this alone to complete from where we left it require (approximate of Kshs 80,000) which we have not included other house requirement such as furniture but if we can manage to finish it we can use what already we have while looking for appropriate equipment furniture.
For all what I know it only death can separate me with my goals and dream to fulfill my mission in this world I will keep pushing and pushing until all this and many more activities and goals fulfilled. For the past few months or year I have been thinking  too much of my life and things I have done seen come a cross witnessed and been part of it even if we can say life is not fair, yes it is not but sometime give us a lot of opportunity to prove who we are and what we can offer to others because life is sharing and helping each other who does not have what we have or does not have such opportunity as we have, in past five years I have been involved my self without minding who I am in social development meeting arranging opportunity for youth, women and other members of society in training  and voluntary opportunity in different community and I my self I have done it too, been in different communities projects, T raining and etc and am glad because all those opportunity made me who I am today and gave me what I know today…..
I belief it we people who can or who decide our destiny or our goals mission which we want to achieve in this world, but sometime we all need mentors or role model to help us out and guide us step by step… And whoever understands you and belief in you and your goals skill talent can be your mentor in one way or another.
Do you ever think who are you in society what impact do you bring in your society or can you be a role model or mentor to somebody in your society? This one question we all need to ask our selves once in while to see if we still can hold good morals or add value in our society because it does not matter if it’s positive or negative even devil has is follower so we all need to know we are in one way or another responsible to each other development be it on negative or positive depend with how you think of it… or take things and love your life to be…
It my dream my hope everything I dream of today one day it will be a stepping stone for someone else in life to achieve their dream and talking of that it my goals every day to remind my friends who I am and what I plan wish, dream and work for every day for.  About seven years ago I got touched with growing number of less educated and street children in our society and it come to my mind that not only the rich can make change in our society but everybody with noble heart to make change can help those in need..
Luck of enough family support from food and basic needs for children when growing up, it very only foundation which can shape our future in developing our nation’s and our selves, these some of the reason which made me think am lucky one to have got an opportunity to share and learn from other youth and people from other part of our country and the world as I believed it only one man who can come out with idea turn it to goals and mission to the reality. As one of the victim of childhood inequality in education and strong family support in understanding my self and focusing in my future knowing what I want while still young….. this challenged me so much up to today’s am sure a lot of challenges I FACE it foundation was build in my childhood when I was growing up.
It does not matter today our government has proved or supported education for every child to be in school, but still it does matter or the words are not enough, we still have a lot to do to achieve this, a child or when we are young everything which make us happy its all what good for us, and education it not one of them, believe me or not. Many poor family children find education uninteresting because of what they go through in achieving it and if anything else which is better than that come a cross they go for that.
 my goals in HCCR is to advocate, support, educate needy children give them motivation toward education, about seven years ago I started thinking of this idea of building a children home/ center just not because I was rich guy or I had money somewhere but with Hope and what I only had was a space of small land which our dad left for us and idea behind it and that in mind I was motivated and I shared it with my friends who I trusted and majority gave me more motivation to go ahead and do it… some even promised to held work with me and help fundraise money and other resources to build and others things.
In 2008 we started and with nothing but just idea and space HCCR was born and it was my greatest moment in my life and I knew nothing gonna stop me until the center its fully complete with children and my dream of waking up every morning to start a day surrounded by over fifty children guiding them and giving them motivation to start their day. But by today when I am writing this I WISHED this will be complete by now but due to human challenges, financially I have not yet achieved that dream, but am still too much a live and know even if it next ten years from today HCCR Will stand up as children center for community education advocate for all and especially a place where children will get motivated empowered and home for many.
It does not matter how, who when, where or why but it only take one man or women to start bringing or making that life time change to someone, society, Nation and world all we need it’s courage, motivation, sacrifice and our selves to achieve to offer come and bring who we are in our society and to those around us.
Lastly it’s only that little step we make in our life can make that big different change to someone life or in our society, so if you are reading this and you wish you could help it never too late to make change, I Would be GLAD to listen hear and share more with you for bring change we believe in our society.
Together we can make change
Uncle Ben

Mar 21, 2013

Looking back in our life sometime it give us courage to keep going!

It just few years back when I started my work in voluntary, in different place in our country and from that time I have met so many people who come in my life in one way or another and am really glad I met those people last night I COULDN’T sleep and my mind took me back in those days and great moment with friends from different part of the world….

It took me in this sometime in life when I meet old friends, it remind Me how quickly time passes and it make me wonder if we’ve utilized our time properly or not, proper utilization of time is so important while we have this body and especially this amazing human brain, I think every minute is something precious our days to day existence is very much alive with hope although there is no guarantee of our future, there is no guarantee that tomorrow at this time we will be here, but still we are working for that purely on the basis of hope, so we need to make the best use of our time, I belief that the proper utilization of time is this.
If you can serve others people other sentient being if not at least refrain from harming them, I think that is the whole basic of my philosophy (Dalai Lama)

This and many others personal message I come a close my books when my mind turn back in those emotions moment of thinking of my life, but the truth is I miss some great moment and great friends I shared time with but the truth is whenever I read some of their messages their give me courage, and motivation to keep working on and on, last week I held YVC generally meeting which was one of successful plan this year.
As I said and I keep saying in life we have option to make the right decision in our life and move on but sometime we are surrounded by so many challenges and demand which pulls us out of our goals, and that why we need each other to bring us to our line back to our goals and so on…

This year I am looking to achieve great things am not sure how but I have that belief in my soul and mind…
kindly share in my blogs you views ideas and suggestion and i would be glad to hear anything from my friends 
Uncle Ben

Mar 8, 2013

Letter to You from Uncle Ben! 2013

Dear Friend!! 2013
Some time in life we given opportunity to prove ourselves, judge ourselves and reflect our background, a break to think and rethink of things we wish to achieve in life…
I have gone all this through and thought so much about my life my work and everything I do in my life, recently I have gone and still going through hard/difficult time in life, loosing my laptop with all information in it, was the hardest hit for now but I didn’t loose hope and I did know it continuously of my challenges, but I kept hope and still I have hope my challenges are just passing by one day things go as per my wish…
As I started some time in life we get time to refresh our mind look things different and come up with few or one or two most important things we wish to achieve in life. My time of difficult and challenges has given more time for this and I have looked so much my back group, time  I shared with most of my great friends, project I have worked on things I have done promised myself and lastly the great continues support I have got from you all,
As my friends in one way or another am proud and am glad I got opportunity to meet with great lovely kind and compassionate friends like you and for that I have managed to do greats things in life which I always say I managed to do so because of you and your kindness love support, motivation you shown to me and that what keep me in my difficult time… like now,  I know and I wished today to have achieved a lot but in one thing or another I have not achieved everything and many things I wished to achieve by year 2013..
Let me say there are so much running up and down in this mind for now but the truth is I can not even be able to write it all, here but I have request to ask for each one of you, my greatest goal, desire and wish in my life and what give me sleepless night in life is to complete my children center, where I plan to use the center to host facilitate children and support them in education, am sure you all knows why this is my greatest desire in life! Am victim of luck of proper good, education luck of good support in my childhood, and I believe if we wanna help or make change, in the future is to  ray a strong foundation for our children in education as the key to their future success..  in line of my work I have met so many youth’s who in one way or another they overcome life challenges which was developed from childhood..
Today my children center (HCCR) has been not actively working as I wished by now to be, not even organization I am key founder for about five years ago today- and which I put all my commitment, effort, dedicated  and facilitated all activities as much as I can, and as one of my way of earning income for myself, our main challenges today is from last year things turned to be so hard, due to politic, and our neighbors terrorist attack  and fight with Somalia… and from this challenges our source of income got closed and we did not have any other means of fund’s or donors to support our organization activities..
All this my life has gone from bad news to worse in getting few even personal basic need’s but I thanks few of my friends who never left me alone still in small and great honest and trust they have been helping in one way or another..
Current am planning to build a new team to work and to YVC organization for the next level, but for me am hoping little by little to raise some funds which will enable me complete face one and two of HCCR and take my retirement from Nairobi life go to the village work full time on my greatest life desire and dream…
Face one and two include complete Guest house where anyone of you or volunteers who will come to visit us will find a better save comfortable house to rest sleep and work.
The other one we need to complete is dormitory and equip one with beds and other temporally with educational material and other day to day center business and last one for face one& two is income generating activities, while looking for other means of facilitating all other activities or programs for our center we need to have at list one income generating at the center.
Now here is where I need your help, I know we can if we only wish and willing to help and make change… just look at me I have nothing and I had nothing,’’ but because I got that desire to make change and great people like you who motivated me, helped me got trust in me and worked with me for the past five years I have managed to keep this two organization a live which is not easy and am sure there many who in one way or another have greatly benefited from it..
So why not you and me together work just one more extra mile together to move this a step ahead….am sorry when things turn to money issue many people do not want to get involved I have lost friends, very close friends because of money issue but I always say use of money is only to facilitate what our small hand can not.. And it becomes the biggest evil in the race of human being because even great lover can separate because of just money issue…
Let first look the goal and achievement of project, the needy child in village who need me and you are only hope for them…
Kindly am sure with your help time we can achieve this goals together does mean you need to contribute with money to help me, but ideas information and your motivation can be of great change to this Hope Goal, share with me any idea, information or if you like to donate materials, such as books, old computer or anything which can be used in the center, kindly I would be glad to hear from you for those would like to donate cash – kindly  for now am using one bank, Due to current challenges financially I couldn’t manage to keep other organization accounts –
So you can deposit your donation to
MY Accounts- kindly  write to me ask for it will give it to you!!!!

Thanks for you time hope to hear and share more with you help me to fulfill my desire goals in helping and molding a child in life…
My grandma used to tell me if you do well you do it for yourself …
LOVE             Uncle Ben

Dec 14, 2012

X-mass is Here what plan!!!!

Sometime in life we have to sacrifice and let other things go in our life, but other small things we do for others even if it’s once for while make a big change in their life so do not be ashamed if you can’t not do the great things but focus on small achievement you wish in life!!
The other day somebody stole my Laptop plus others things yes it’s painful not for things but what it carried in it!! But just after many day’s of thinking of it’ and other things I remember only God know why other things happen to others and not to other one’s I just remember a story of the mother who carry a baby on a womb for nine month and when the time come to deliver the baby, it turn out something else- do we blame the maker or the mother or doctor or The Nature Non because God has purpose of everything in this world if you think of things which happen to people in this world you realize how lucky we are sometime in life…
To be able to see the day light is blessed, to get our daily bread is blessing and to have two hand two legs, two eyes healthy body or life is blessing.
So after all that life is good and if you are alive healthy and at list have a place to call home need to appreciate that and know that you are blessed!!